A Lesbian Love Story by Schree`

Hey peeps! How's the week treating ya? I have committed to blogging more. For me, these days, that's not really asking a lot lol.. But, I really do miss writing every day. It's good stuff.. Even if you only write a teeny entry, you know? Aaanyway. Yesterday was the 4th year anniversary of my father's death.. I posted a little ditty on Myspace for him. I'd like to share it with you all..:

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I LOVE YOU DADDY!

Good morning peeps!! Happy "Ticklish Tuesday!" I'm hanging out, watching last night's "Paradise Hotel".. I love that show! They brought back this kid Zack who was on the first season. LOL honey, he was funny as hell the first time.. He's a little older and more settled (so it seems) now.. We'll see.. I have to give mad props to that show, I mean, there are actually more than 2 blacks on there! HEYOOOO!! Well, there were.. I think there are two left. TD and the new brother that they just brought on.. Do you ever notice that on so many of these reality shows it's like "white out" lol.. I mean.. There may be 1 or 2 token blacks, but, how kool would it be if they put a whole bunch of fine assed brothers in a house with a shitload of white chicks LOLOL oh that would be a good show! You know those girls would be in friggin Heaven! J

Baby's still in bed.. It's pretty early here.. I may go and wake her up though. Today I get a pass .. You see, it was 4 years ago exactly this morning that my father passed away.. She'll get up and keep me company.. It's still very odd.. Not having him around.. I feel him around me quite often, but, you know what I mean.. To hear his laugh, his awesomely deep voice (it was sooo rich, my father's voice.. When he was in radio, he made women melt.. My mother among them lol..
But, yeah, I remember that day like it was yesterday.. It was April 22, and Baby and I were at Wal-Mart and as we were heading for the car our cell phone rang. For some reason, as soon as the phone rang, I kind of new. I guess you could call it a gut feeling.. Baby answered the phone and sat there for a moment. Then she handed the phone to me saying "It's Jr. he wants to talk to you, but he told me to stand right beside you".. he hadn't told her.. So, I take the phone.. Say howdy to my bro.. Then he drops it.. "'T', the Boss died this morning".. I didn't flip the f*** out or anything.. I knew at that moment that I had to represent. You know, stiffin' that upper lip up! ( I love that song "Mockingbird") by Eminem.. That's the best line.. One of them anyway..
So, yeah, it was a surreal day. Our birthday is on the 19th of May, and I was getting ready to go back home for our annual fiesta lol.. Daddy and I always had such a great time on our birthdays! It's kind of kool being born on your dad's birthday!! HOLLA!!!!!! So today is for you Daddy.. R.I.P. Know that you are thought of and remembered everyday.. I know that I had/have the best father in the world.. Thank you so much for always being there for me.. Talking to me.. Teaching me life's lessons.. You have taught me so much. You will always live in my heart.. I love you Daddy-pooh.!

xoxoxoxo,

your baby girl...
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You know, I've experienced so many things, and so many people and situations since my father's passing. I credit him so much for helping me to develop the strength and agility to hang out in this jungle lol.. I actually had a pretty good day. As I thought about my dad (as I do every day, of course) I was just so thankful. Thankful that I had him for 34 years. Plus, I've met so many people that have lost one or both parents. Hey. It's a club that we'll all join one day. God willing (for our parent's sakes).. But still.. It sucks. Some of you probably understand all to well the inclination to call or to talk to your mom/dad after they've passed. I've come through all of the stages of grief , it's true when they say that you never know how long.. When I say "grief" I don't mean, banging my head on the floor or screaming into the lightbulb. No, that's not what I mean.. I mean, just the acknowledgement that the parent you are missing is never coming back. Not in this life anyway. It's a tough pill to swallow, but, I'm used to Christmas, and Easter, and my birthday now.. Those and all days were pretty important to my dad and me. But, I thank God every day that I have the wife that I have. She is truly my love and my inspiration. I couldn't have asked for a more beautiful soul to join mine on this crazy ride. I love that woman more than mere words can express.. Dayum! :-) We're celebrating our 12th anniversary in May.. May 30th to be exact! ;-) I'll tell ya.. May is a very busy month month for us.. Let's see, Baby's B-day is May 6th.. Mine is May 19th, and of course, when my Daddy was kicking it with us, we had his B-day on the 19th as well. GOOD TIMES!! LOL Then, add on top of that, our anniversary, and you've got a pretty busy month.. Aaanyway guys and gals.. I'm gonna head for now.. But, I shall return! ;-) Just know that, although I don't blog often, that doesn't mean that I've forgotten about my buds over here.. Come on.. Do I ever forget about buds? ;-)

hugs and love.. and many kisses (on the cheek ;-) )

schree'